I've never had such good friends before. I've told my friends this but I don't want to make them uncomfortable by beating them over the head with it. But it's true. There are some people I stay in touch with irregularly from home and from boarding school, but the truth is I don't think I saw more than one person on purpose last summer when I was home.
This is partially because I did go to boarding school: I decided to go and my home-town acquaintances didn't really understand why, so we lost touch. Not a super big deal anyway because I can count on both hands how many times I ever had someone come over to hang out during elementary and middle school.
I'm pretty sure that no matter who you ask, however, they'd say I am a socially competent, normally functioning person. I just have never really associated myself on an intimate level with many people. I DO connect with people on a surface level really well though, and my facebook friend-count and commute to school attest to this.
But now I feel phenomenally/wonderfully/jubilantly lucky to count myself as part of a close group of people. I am so very, very happy. Which brings me to the boyfriend issue. Because I don't want to change my friend-dynamic and because having a boyfriend would, I don't want one. This is not to say that I would have the discipline (or foolishness) to turn away Mr. Right. I'm just not interested in Mr. Right-Now.
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